Am… chu… First of all, I want to thank you for all the memories that you gave me. also for the love, care and understanding. You made the world a better place by just being there. When I’m with you, I feel like everything will be alright and that I could be strong enough to survive. Even after everything that has happened, I can still honestly say that ‘you are the best thing that’s ever been mine’ and that you will forever have that big special place inside my little heart. I know I made mistakes and the greatest lesson I’ve learned is from the mistake that led you to choose her over me. You were so wonderful, so amazing. you fixed me. I was so broken when you found me, but you didn’t complain and you loved me like no one ever did. I loved you with all my heart and now I’m broken all over again. But hey.. don’t worry, I’m trying to slowly pick up the pieces, but it’ll never be the same again. All this time spent on building my walls against you, trying to move on from all the pain, went flying like a dandelion in the wind whenever I see your face or just hear your voice. I’m trying really hard not to disturb your new found happy relationship with her. I know she’s a good person and she loves you, (she better do, OR ELSE SHE’S GOING TO FEEL MY WRATH!!) Maybe you haven’t noticed but every time we talk about her breaks me into even smaller pieces. I don’t know what to do at this point. I’m so confused. I’m trying to start over with someone new. I know I care for her enough for me to not want to hurt her, but I just don’t feel that wonderful feeling that I felt for you. But I guess I should give her and myself a chance. I’m sorry I couldn’t be the person you wanted me to be. I hope one day we could laugh about this together. My heart will forever be waiting for you. But now, I’ll just leave everything to faith.
You know… I still cry whenever I hear that song. our little song of love.
"tell her I’m counting the minutes, gonna see her in a little while.."
note to self: I really need to stop crying over your blogs.
I STILL WONDER WHY SHE CHOSE THIS DOG BACKGROUND.
Am and I had an argument today. we were talking about how we picture our own family together. it was nice and cozy at first. then she started ranting about how much she wants children. it was all because of our later-in-the future (sooo much laaaaaaaaaaaateeeer in the very faaaar future of ours) babies. she kept on telling me that the babies are more important than me. I was ok with that but she always leave me out of the picture. she told me that she and the baby would sleep in the bed while I sleep in the sofa. she told me that when we build a tree house, she and our kids would play there while I guard the our house. she told me that when I needed attention she would give it to the baby. but really, the worst part is when she told me that if there’s no baby, there’s no marriage. I don’t like this, I don’t like this at all.
UGHHHH.. BUT I JUST CAN’T STAY MAD AT HER. SHE’S SO FRKN ADORABLE!!
AND I’M SOOO MADLY CRAZY INLOVE WITH HER.